random updates...

I noticed that my blog seldom have pictures... Its because I'm just too lazy to plug in the memory card and upload them to the blog... hehe i love more words hehe...
Okie back to story...
Yes i was quite down for the past few months... But now I'm officially 'ok'... Finally got through all of it...
Don't ask me how, i just did... hehe...
*Now my everyday aim is to live happily and be a filial daughter*


My dog is someone who will always be there for me whenever i need her...
I do more shopping for her than for myself...
I think for her more than i think for myself...
She is the laughter and of course anger for my family...
She is in my family for almost a year now...
Sometimes i felt that she has the exactly same attitude and behaviour like me...
REALLY!!
Despite all the troubles and anger she gave us,
I'm afraid to think of the day i will leave you,
I LOVE YOU TWEETY!!

She ate something weird while she's having a walk outside today and came back vomiting... She was so quiet the whole night... But guess what, my dad actually suggested to feed her pil chi kit!! haha... And yes, she does eat them (it feels crunchy too!) lol... I think she is better now...

When she first came to our house... (I didn't trap her in ok, she went in between the chairs herself)

Growing...

Favourite sleeping position... haha...

my lovely tweety... (the toy got tangled up around her collar while she was playing with it)


Today i was stuck in the toilet in neway karaoke room...
My friends were singing and shouting happily outside until i knocked and screamed at the door... haha...
They tried to help me out, but there is nothing they can do so they called the waiter...
He asked me to stand back and kicked the door hard to save me...
IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING... GOSH...
I think the door knob is completely damaged...
oops sorry? haha... FIX IT, DAMN IT!

Enlightment...

I finally knew why... I got enlightened somehow...

You can tell everyone how strong your relationship with your loved ones,
When you say this, you should have known them very well...
Every single detail of their life...
What they love and HATE most...

BUT, you shall never say anything out to her if you 'knew' it might hurt them...
NEVER EVER...
No matter how long you know this person or how 'funny' you think the 'joke' is...
What is hurtful is hurtful... and
What is said cannot be reversed...

That is why manners are so important...
Always keep it in mind...

Do think twice or at least let your conversation be filtered through your brain...

Before everything is too late...

Fragile...

Life is fragile...

That includes the anatomical part of your body as well as the external associated behaviour...

I used to believe that when you have a strong bond in something it will be harder for it to break... Just like when you train a muscle well enough it is not so easily exposed to injuries...

But now i felt that there are nothing much you can control in life...
yes you can do whatever you can to strengthened it... But there are no guarantee that it will not break...
And then again, the healing process may take years and even your whole life...
The very classical example to relate this in life would be any relationship you developed...
When it has to break, it will break...

Some people wouldn't want to spend time finding ways to heal it but instead they will find an alternative way to overcome it (if it is possible)...

Maybe you don't accept this kind of method, or should you say you are just not used to it? you cannot forget the past doesn't mean other people can't...

Instead of looking forward, you will remain in that position thinking whether you were at least remembered...

How foolish isn't it?

To you that changed my world...

Thanks to you...
for once accompanying me for about a year each and every day...
for once that I'm on top of your list without any doubt...
for once that you would ask and share every of your thoughts with me...
but now everything has changed since...
because i am afraid of getting the same hurtful truth again...
hence, i changed...

To you...
which i have no idea what are you thinking about in your mind...
hot n cold, yes n no, in n out, up n down...
which makes me overly mind over matter because i don't know what should i do...
follow my feelings or not?
hence, i changed...

To you,
that i once believed we will last forever...
that i once believed you are d kindest human being on earth...
that i once believed i can trust you in anything...
But you changed into a stranger which i am afraid of...
i am not sure whether u have changed or i finally found out the hurtful truth again...
hence, i changed...

Thanks to you,
which left me with too much of disappointment,
too much of pain and scar which can never be healed again...
i became who i am...

I hate Msia...

hey folks!! yeap i know it has been a long time... but trust me i really do wanna update my blog if only i am free... i even planned about what to write actually... this was suppose to be a post about my another half of my life----my DOG!!!

But eventually now its not the case because i am really pissed off today!!!
Here it goes...

My dad and i went to do some work in Penang GH today and we took firefly... we always buy return ticket and today our return flight time was 640pm.
We manage to finish up our job and leave the hospital at 530pm but dunno wth happened in penang the jam was TERRIBLE!!! (heard there was some election going on)

We managed to rushed to the airport at 610pm... I used up all the muscles i have in my body trying to run like Usian Bolt to reach the check-in counter...
Guess what...

THE COUNTER IS CLOSED!!!
counter: sorry the counter is closed for your flight...
me: OMG what should i do then? you can't do anything?
counter: sorry there is nothing i can do (he called somebody and the answer is still
NO), maybe you can go purchase another ticket...

After quarreling for 15 minutes...
me: Try again!!! Let me talk to your superior!!

Talked to the so called 'manager' but he didn't say whether that he can help or not then just ask me to pass the phone back to his staff...

counter: sorry there is really nothing we can do...

Wth when there is more time he didn't even make more effort to at least help us check-in instead he keep saying 'there is nothing i can do'... hello........ how would you know if you don't try??

Later on i got very emotional.... tears and sweat started pouring and of course... WORDS...
I kept insisting i wanna talk to the useless yet hopeless manager again because im just not satisfied!!!
Well he did call but the outcome was... 'call the security'...
wth i am not doing any crime i haven't start jumping and hitting you or even start throwing things he told his staff to CALL THE SECURITY!!! WITHOUT EVEN DARE TO COME OUT SEE ME FACE TO FACE!!! I AM VERY VERY VERY PISSED OFF!!!

we ended up buying another ticket back with doubled the normal price because it was last minute purchasing...
Then i asked where is the customer service??
The cashier said: oh sorry its closed not they only work during office hours.
me: what do you mean by office hours only? is that call customer service? means if the plane crashes after 5pm it is none of your business? screw it...

What did i learned from this story:
* Don't be late for your flight of course (but sometimes it is just out of control)
* I believe in KARMA (i hope he sleeps well tonight... he will definitely pay for
it) and of course i won't let you go so easily... Prepare to receive COMPLAINTS!!
~~sorry forgive me if im being too emotional...
* 'Some people' during PUASA month will just NOT MOVE THEIR ASSes and the best
answer is "there is nothing i can do..."
* I hate msia's customer servicing attitude... (especially 'some people')
* I hate Msia!!!
~~education sucks, transportation sucks, politics sucks, government sucks, what else did i missed? Noticed what are the causes of all these? ANS: 'SOME PEOPLE'

Classic e.g:
What is the used of a man standing in the middle of the traffic waving their hands when there is no jam... HELLO DO YOU KNOW THAT YOU ARE CAUSING MORE JAM??? and no where to be seen where there is heavy traffic?
ANS: OH WE WENT FOR THE NON MOVING CARS AT THE ROAD SIDE INSTEAD, you know la "there
is nothing we can do ma". (our specialty)

I guess most of you would have more examples of your 'beloved' country...
since form 4 i stopped singing 'that' anthem... so pathetic you have to name your own song your own name because you are afraid that no one would remember it... i feel sad for you...

# I really think i don't, in fact i don't want to be in this country... But i only
could just wait for the day to come real soon... The only thing i like here? FOOD.

My dad the HERO...

I really felt like abandoning my blog... until a few minutes ago something happened and the thoughts flew across my mind...

And it made me feel like crying...

My dad...

Yes sometimes he is fierce and scary when he is not in a good mood... And we as a children will think that our dad don't understand our feelings but only insists in his own ways...
But always remember, everyone in this world has the right too feel unhappy in life... So why not our DADs?

Yes sometimes he would do something beyond expectation such as fixing the lamp to the night sensor lamp which we think that its not a need, fixing a water heater in his bathroom where he seldom used, buying things that we think its not relevant and etc etc...
But at the end of the day, no matter how much grumbling we said to him, how much disagreement we said, he will continue to do what he wants...
And eventually we found out that all those that he did and bought were actually very useful...

He always say that we don't think outside the box. I agree.

Btw, it is his hobby to do DIY jobs...
Everyone has their own hobby, why can't our DADs?
(Does your dad stop you from doing your favourite hobbies?) But dad, can you please be careful?

Yes i know very clearly that my dad are getting older day by day... Human tends to be more grumpy as they get older...
But you think this is what they wished?
Try and imagine when you can't perform a task when you can easily do during the younger days, how much frustration you have to bear?
Everyone has their right to get older and grumpy, why can't our DADs?

Come to think of it, my dad had seldom say no when i asked him for any kind of help...
i really owe my dad alot alot alot...

When i was younger, he spent his time and money driving me here and there for badminton coaching... No matter how far and how expensive it is...
During the training days, I am very afraid of my dad... I will be super tensed if he was sitting there watching me during competitions... And if i lose any of them, he would just scold and scold and scold until i cry...
I made it to the state level... Thanks to him...
But as time goes by, i kinda understand why he scold me so harshly... He spent so much time, money and effort for me but i played without any fighting spirit on court, giving up so easily...
Everyone has the right to scold when they didn't get what they wished for, why can't our DADs?

I know his dream is to see me excel in badminton, to the national and international level...
I'm sorry dad i couldn't make it...

My dad would give me the very best in anything...
He would wanna fetch me home from college even though he wasn't anywhere near there...(but telling me he is near...)
He would buy all of us breakfast every weekends morning...
He would buy anything i want...(useful things ok...)
He would allow us to sleep till noon...
He would etc etc.... The list will never end...

For now, i don't know what to say...

I just hope that both my parents will have extra longer life so that i can treat them as well as possible...
Because i know that i can never repay what my parents did for me... What i can do and ALL OF US should do is to be a filial daughter and son without causing any trouble or disappointment to them... THIS WOULD BE THE HAPPIEST AND PRICELESS GIFT to them...

I would do just anything to make them smile... I promise...

It's EASY, Isn't it?

Thank you MOM and DAD!!! Both of you are the MOST SPECIAL mom and dad in the world... Thank you for your guidance along our growing curve and made me who i am now...
I LOVE YOU... You are the BEST!!!